Something to ponder...

Siapa kata kita hanya akan gembira apabila kita dah cukup kaya, good looking, ada banyak aset untuk menunjuk-nunjuk, banyak peminat? That race will never end. 

Mungkin kamu dah gembira, cuma belum sedar lagi saja. Perkara yang orang lain semua mahukan, tak tentu sesuai untuk kamu. Mungkin semua orang mahukan Haagen Dazs, jadi kamu pikir tentu Haagen Dazs yang terbaik dan paling bagus. Tapi mana tahu aiskrim potong akan lebih menggembirakan kamu? Mana tahu aiskrim potong lagi menepati citarasa atau 
deria rasa kamu?

 Bunyi macam analogi untuk cari pasangan pula, tapi bukan, ini analogi yang boleh 
diaplikasi dalam semua aspek. 


 So screw other people, what do you really want? 

C I C I

Dia sudah tidak pantas melayan rajukku, ragamku, mengadaku

Seringkali seakan-akan mahu memaharahiku

Sabarnya sudah tidak seperti yang selalu

Mungkinkah seorang yang lain kini menarik perhatiannya?

Mungkinkah sudah tawar hatinya?

Mungkinkah penat yang dia rasa?

Sedih aku tak tertahankan

Silap aku juga yang berlebihan

Seperti sudah biasa dimanja layankan

Ku mohon kau jangan pernah berubah

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...

Cici

Taken for granted

Assalamualaikum and hi.

I don't know the purpose of writing this, I think I had it more than enough. I think I need to spill this out. It burdens my heart, so much. Because after all I feel being used. I've been always asking the real meaning of  'taken for granted'. Never be in that situation, yet. But for this time, it punched me real in the face. Yes finally I know how does it feel. Too sad, yet still not tired of being hurt again and again. I just feel like forgiving this kind of people. Too bad thinking this only happens in relationship. I was wrong. When it happens in friendship, you will never feel worst than this. 

People just don't appreciate you when you're always with them. They can't see that. They can't see you will always there, whenever they need you. They come and go. Treating you like normal. Like nothing's happened. Like you've not being hurt. Like you don't even have a heart. Pretty cool though how can you do that? Yeah, how can I do that. Pretending I am okay, even I am not. 

God, I miss being 17 :'(