11 November 2016

Em so you see.. What brings me here after like a year I'm off from this blogging thing. But for this time around, everything fails to distract me from not coming here 

 I am unable to describe exactly what is the matter with me; now and then there are horrible fits of anxiety, apparently without cause, or otherwise a feeling of emptiness and fatigue in the head.

I miss you.. I miss you.. I miss you..

The whole thing about long distance is this shattered feelings mixed up in your heart. You have to fight with your own thoughts! There are days where I’m okay, and then there are days where the thought of waiting literally consumes my mind and gets me down. I want to be where you are, and I know you want me there too. My heart aches at the thought of having to do distance for another year or longer. I pray that life falls into place for us to where we don’t have to wait and our dreams can happen when we want them too. I’m trying not to get discouraged just yet because anything can happen. That’s just it though, anything can happen. 

Just know that I love you, and I can’t wait until we can have a home together. To come home to one another after a long day. I long for the day where we can finally close this distance. The thought of waiting literally kills me. I just pray closing this distance isn’t far off in our future. I know I am a strong girl who hangs in there for emm let's not give it a figure. It is just like crying myself to sleep seems to be my part time job now..

 Tired of waiting? Just believe something good awaits :')

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