31 October 2010

know me well,know me better

i miss you.. 
how're you? may all the things going well with you.. we're apart now though we're near.. i miss the moments we're together in past.. we had plenty time to get along.. can we have it for one more time? even.........................

yeaa.. i miss her.. 
(breath deeply..) hmmpphh.. i know her since we're in primary.. however,it just was a coincidence.. then,we met again,again and again.. finally.. God's plan,who knows.. we got an offer at a same boarding school.. that's what we call destiny.. since then,we had been so closed till the title 'bestfriend' so called.. i admit,it lasts just for a few months.. after that? things got complicated.. and the friendship blew just like wind.. it became worsen and worst.. days changed to months and months reached years.. saddd.. that's what i felt deep inside my heart and yet.. she did't notice it.. 

after years we're not in a good condition,
i tried to change when we got into fifth former.. we were so closed.. too closed i guess but it was about the position and not our friendship.. i don't know why and it's too hard to be explained,believe me! i know,you know this too.. we couldn't voice it out and we just keep it in our heart until there's a huge barrier between us.. 

you know what?
i know everything about you! whenever you 'see' me,whenever you talk to me.. i know that you want everything to be crystal clear.. and don't you know that i wish the same too?? :'(  i'm crying? yesss! im crying and dying over here.. because it is only you that know me well! you're the one that always being by my side whenever i need somebody to be with me..
pleaseee.. lend me your shoulder to cry on,now.. huk3~
everything we share together,it sticks in my heart.. remember the time when i was sick and it was so cold.. you're the one that stayed up all night and slept beside me on your bed.. in the morning, you prepared me with the breakfast and told that i had bad cough that night.. and i want you to know that i still can remember how you used to rub me.. i wanna broke into tears on the dot because i knew, we still can't get along with but then you still.. huk3.. you still there,being by my side.. knowing whenever i need somebody and you'll be the one..

it was so weird because it just like we ourselves understand and can read what is in each other's mind.. isn't it?? sometimes we don't talk for days.. and we're just smiling at each other.. sometimes we're having lots of joy together by having jokes,fake arguing and much more.. and sometimes we're about like not knowing each other.. hello,there's no one that surround us realise that.. they're just assuming that we're always in good condition.. but then,not forgotten that there's few who noticed this..

still,before and after SPM was nothing to us.. were we STONE? when SPM was in progress,it worsen! i don't know you and same goes to you.. we're in our own planets.. till the results was announced.. CONGRATULATIONS for you passed it with flying colours.. your hard word paid off finally.. i'm proud of you and you're proud of me too,right? (n_n) thanks goodness,we got the chance to fulfill our dream,then.. and the relations seemed to be fine,i guess..

here, i wanna make a confession according to what i feel now.. you're one that make me goal the success because i envy you! i can't see you face the books all the time.. so,i face the books too.. i acted lots in front of you.. sorry for that.. you're acting too,right? heyy.. we're just at the same! haha XD.. we own too many similarities,besty.. anddd.. thanks for the 'moral supports' that you gave me all this time.. really appreciate that! seriously.. i wanna you to know that you are the one that i miss lots right now because you know me well,know me better.. once more,I MISS YOU.. 

really hoping that she read this because i really miss her now and wanna she to know it.. :(

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